Live Like There's No Tomorrow

2011-05-21T00:01:00.001+08:00

I'm moving onto Tumblr! Seem fun!

http://iarejoann.tumblr.com/

Cheers!

2011-05-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

After watching so many episodes of "Undercover Boss" and I'm so inspired. I watched all these employees working so so hard just for their kids. The crazy amount of school fee that they have to pay, the bills, houses got destroyed, spouses lost their jobs, single parent etc.. And they still never fail to say, "My children mean the world to me." I'm just so touched. Somehow it hurts so bad at the same time because they have to go thru all these and these employees had been brought up in bad parenting or bad marriages etc but their hearts are just amazing. They didn't just stop there, they fight for their dreams, their kids, their lives. I just can't stop thinking about it.

Whether am I getting married or not to have kids, not married and adopt.. I wish one day, just one day that I will be able to say, "My children mean the whole world to me and I love them very much."

2011-05-09T22:32:00.001+08:00

Don't lie and say that it's ok.

It's alright here, there's nothing more to say.

So I'm running away.

I'm leaving this place.

Yeah, I'm running away.

I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.

It's too late for you to make me stay.

No, I won't stay.

So I'm running away.

I'm leaving this place.

Yeah, I'm running away.

I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.

And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving

Yeah I'm leaving today.

And I, I'll never let you find me.

I'm leaving you behind with the past

No, I won't look back.

And I don't want to hear your reasons.

Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me

And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay

I, I'm moving on from this place

I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.

I'm leaving this place.

Yeah, I'm running away.

I'm running away.

2011-05-09T22:24:00.001+08:00

I AM GOING TO GET NEW TATTOO ON THIS WEDNESDAY! :D

2011-05-05T01:03:00.003+08:00

My officially goals for the next 6 months are:

1) Powered pleasure craft driving license

2) Kayaking 1 star Personal Skill Award

And now the bloody shitty webby is not working and I can't sign these courses up. :(

Anyone wanna join me?

And maybe also open water diving course but a bit pricey for me now... Cos ain't gonna work till next year! FOCUSING on FYP & Portfolio!

2011-04-27T18:48:00.007+08:00

Our 4th year celebrating our birthday together!!!!!

This year is LUGE RIDEEEEEE!!!!!!!! WHHHHHHEEEEEEEE~

This is my 2nd time going for the Luge Ride and 1st time for Jiejie. Very fun! She likes it and so do I! :) Simple celebrating every year, make us feel so satisfied. :)

2011-04-24T01:17:00.005+08:00

Hmmm... I am 21 years old now, am still trying to accept it. HA! I just felt suddenly everyone is getting older and older day by day. I have been thinking a lot for my future. There are so many things that I want to do. Right now.. I'm feeling as if I'm a kid who always want to be this and that. I remember when I was young, my dream is always wanting to be a doctor; to save lives. Time go by, I want to be Neurologist, after that it was Cardiologist and soon it was Optometrist.

Back in my upper primary school days, I did badly in school. My parents never encouraged me but all they did was caning, scolding & comparing my results with their friends' children's results- how excellent their friends' children did. All I recalled is they kept saying I won't be a doctor if don't get good results, all I can do is to sweep the road and wash dishes.

When I come to sec 1, I realized I've stop dreaming big dreams. All I want is to do nothing. Times go by, I knew this group of youth group, they spent a lot of time knowing us and reached out to me and my friends. I was touched by their sincere love and followed one of them to church and soon, I became Christian. These people there taught me a lot of things- Leadership, Discipline, Photoshop, Musical Instruments, Organize Camp/Outing etc. All these combined together sparked me up. The dreams start to grow in me, my dreams changed; I want to do job that will drain me up- organize events, do design and etc. I guess I'm still grateful to them although I've left church now (due to some "politics"). I'm sorry that if I happened to bad mouthed here. I have no other better word to replaced but would say because of "politics". Or probably I'm just grew tired; No longer wanna follow what others want/need me to do. In Christian term- I guess everyone will say "Pride". :/ Well... Yeah.

Again... Back to my current dreams, I have so many dreams right now. I cannot seem to get my heart and mind to settle down and start what I need to do now. Why is this so weird. Happily dreaming and now feeling troubled too? :( Am I not suppose to feel more secured that I have big dreams? Certainly I know what I want but I have no one to follow, I'm so scare to fall. I fear too much. I know time is not going to stop for me, I may or may not fulfill my dreams. But right now, all I want to focus on is my final year at ITE. School is kinda pressuring my class for every assignments & ideas for final year project. So I would saying I'm grabbing every opportunity whenever I can play or rest till "doom" day is here.

Cheers to my world & my dreams! Let's work hard for everything. Love myself. :)

2011-04-23T21:52:00.014+08:00

My 21st Birthday Parttttyyy!!

Only invited my loved ones to attend this party of mine. :)

My main motive is to bring all my loved ones together- Get to know each other and let them know that I love them very much. :)

Polaroid BABY~

A Collaboration of Photo at the event.

I have received one of the best birthday presents ever! Everyone of them seem to know what I likes & want!!!!! XOXO! Thank you everybody!

1) Ben Lee- The Script Concert Ticket & Sing- Ma-Jings Bear

2) Zhang Xiaoli- Nixon Watch & Handmade Coin Pouch

3) Vinnie, Viona, Li Ying- Nike (Customised) T-Shirt, Hoodie & SBSP Helium Balloon

4) Aiky & Andrea - Handmade COOKIESSSS & Ang Bao

5) Sunni, Irene- 500GB Hard Disk with a Pouch Case, iPhone 4 case & Birthday Card

6) Gen, Justin- SBSP Light Watch, Ang Bao, Birthday Sunglass & Paper Weight.

7) Tessa- Cake & Panda stressball keychain

8) Sam & Esaint- Red iPhone 4 Case!

9) Angel & Jean- DCSHOECO CAP

10) Claire- DIY Birthday Card

11) Sufian- Birthday Cake

12) Semmy- Ang Bao

And lastly until now I don't know who pay for the Ben & Jerry Ice Cream Birthday Cake!! Whoever you are.... XIE XIE NI! I think XL & Branden lah! Cos two of disappeared for so damn long lah!!!!! XOXO!

And a little sad that some of my loved ones cannot make it but is ok... You guys try to find other time to spend time with me again, k? :D

2011-03-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

FAR EAST MOVEMENT!!!!!!!!

HERE I COMEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

2011-03-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

Having my 6 weeks school holidays now!!!

I've been having fun, busy and tired!!! Too much things going on in my life right now!!! Too much to share & to selfish to share! LOL!

And one more thing... One of my classmate and I created this stop motion animation for a local total defence competition. He is the animator, Im the editor foreverything that you can think of but an animator! LOL! So here's the link... ENJOY~

2011-02-13T03:00:00.001+08:00

:) I've been very very busy with school assignments. I guess I never stop saying this whenever I'm back posting something on my bloggy. Well... Having tons of deadlines to meet is not easy but I guess I'm enjoying getting busy. It's better than doing nothing in my life. I have my tough times but recently I'm doing much better. My family seem to be doing well too, am glad about it because I have lesser thing to care about. :)

I have a video to share. A School Project: Lifeskill- Caring for the Little Animals. (Inspired by The Noose, Channel 5, Mediacorp) So my group came up with the idea of acting, instead of the old & boring presentation way. ENJOY~

2011-02-01T12:10:00.002+08:00

My dad kinda apologised to me and now I can drive once again! But now I really cut down on driving. Ehhh.. Probably just wanting to let my brother drive more than I do since he's two weeks old driver.

Am in school now, finally completed my animatic. :) Two more assignments(group work) & 1 mock test to go after CNY :(

This year is really unlucky for me. :( Am tired of being unlucky, hope everything will be good asap. And also recently my parents suddenly treat me very well. Feeling delighted & weird too cos it's kinda way too nice. I guess is all good then! :)

2011-01-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really really envy some families. :(

Spend good quality & Always go overseas are something that I always wanted since young. Never happened. Good quality wise.. Yea~ Not so bad. Overseasssssssssssss~ :( Sigh.

2011-01-13T22:28:00.008+08:00

I've been quite busy lately.

Busy working during my school holidays and also managed to take 4 days off to play! And I played non-stop till I lost my voice due to... Not enough rest. I've been hanging out with Bestie & her bf, Narayan.. AKA NANA! Lol. We went fishing & prawning for hours and hours. We also went to have breakfast at Burger King! GOOD SHITTTT!!!

So many things happened these passed few weeks. UPsss & DOWNsss! And yesterday, I just had a car accident. :( All thanks to the bangladesh man. I'm glad that I'm alright; no injuries or anything. Well... Whose fault? Standard Road Rule: I LOST!! & Also I didn't check my blindspot (Was at a parallel parking lot) and my dad was guiding me from outside then had that mindset that everything is clear. Well.... If not, I would have win. And he also drove damn fast lah! BANG me already then come down and gan me and I asked him why he drove so fast then he said he drive damnnnnn slowwww.. -.- If slow, he could have stop in time. AND I SIGNAL RIGHT FOR DAMN F***ING LONG LAH!!! AIYA! Now my dad banned me from driving for a year. :( Well... Actually I'm fine- not driving. Just take it as I need a long break. What I'm upset is about the impact (BANG) that I had which I can't forget and I have to compensate the losses. :( Doubly sad for me cos here goes my savings. :(

-NEED A FRESH START BUTTON-

THIS YEAR GONNA BE A BETTER YEAR FOR ME!!! :D

2011-01-05T03:25:00.002+08:00

ME, TODAY.....

HAD A GREAT FUN PLAYING PING PONG WITH

SIM SIAN AIK & HIS MUM!!!

LOVELY~

2011-01-04T16:47:00.002+08:00

I am who I am because of where I have been brought up.

Sometimes I admired some of my friends' parents. They really have amazing Parents. :) But is it good or bad? Are they spoiling their children? I'm wondering.. What's the best for your kids? What should Parents do to make their kids grow up to have good character, good attitude and good personality?

I guess is all about individual choice to be made. My life has just begin, what about you?

2011-01-04T16:44:00.001+08:00

LOVE = HATE

如果有爱，将有仇恨

2011-01-04T16:38:00.002+08:00

I choose not to rely on my parents.

Everything is such a bullshit!

2010-12-12T13:49:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was one of the best thing that happened to me. :D

SUNNI AND IRENE CAME TO FIND ME AT MY WORKING PLACE!!!

He caught me by surprise and my reaction was.. Just walked towards him and we both hugged till damn tight! That was our first hug. LOL! OH MAN!! Unbelievable for a sec! I made sandwich for him to eat and we sat down to talk for awhile :) He said he gonna find me next week again to have dinner. :) I'm so happy! Lalalalalalalalalala!

I miss his delicious food! I miss his nonsense! I miss him- teasing me! I miss him- bringing me around Singapore to see "funny" things. LOL! I JUST CAN'T WAIT!!!

The Madness of Photo booth with my 2 colleagues!

2010-12-12T13:36:00.005+08:00

Been spending time with them.

BESTIE PHUA!

:( She is going to Japan in awhile time.

SO GONNA MISS HERRRRR SO MUCHHHH!!! :(

XiaoLi!

Polaroid BABY!

The sweetest thing (or maybe one of the sweetest thing) that XL did.

She wrote: I miss you ♥ JOANN QUEK

DAN DAN! :)

SUSHI FEST & STARBUCKS FREAKS!

2010-12-12T13:10:00.007+08:00

Look at these awesome photos that AL took for me for my flash project!

My project: Create a web, using flash. Do a "biography" about yourself. So I have this concept of a passport etc.. Is kinda difficult to explain on my blog. I'll try to load it when I'm done with the flash. :) So now enjoy the pics! :)

Intro Page: Emotions will keep changing.

Profile pic

Home Page: Links ("Additional" stuffs edited by me)

OTHERS:

AL bought me sweets from NZ! Damn nice! :)

SHAWN SHAWN! :D

2010-12-12T12:20:00.007+08:00

So many things to say...

These 2 months, I've been thru a roller coaster ride with my family. I guess AL is right, he said since my parents are not receptive about what I have to share then I shall not share it anymore. It will just bring me unhappiness... So what for heh? :) So am gonna move on and take step by step to head for my future.

Money issues in the family just sucks! :/

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Let's talk about school!

Oh man! I've been crazily packed with assignments after assignments. Well.. I feel it's kinda manageable but.. Because of work etc.. Making me feel very demoralised. :( It's ok! 1 more week to go (school holidays), 3 more assignments to go! JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

My drawings now sucks! Haven't been practicing. UH OH!!! HOLY CRAPS!

-> Work is just tiring at times. Working schedule: Thurs & Fri - 8 hrs, Sat- 16hrs.

Bitter now, sweetness later. :)

2010-12-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

Manchmal wünsche ich, dass Sie noch hier waren. :]

2010-11-23T22:09:00.004+08:00

Overwhelm with assignments deadline & work! :(

Need a school holidays break badly...

But it's not gonna make sense if I... Gonna chiong long hours of working during holidays again. Equally to no break but I just feel I need to sleep more these few days. :( Getting exhausted.

I'm missing my (alternate days) exercising routine badly due to my packed schedule now. Although I did my run today and last thurs: swimming. RAWR!!! Wanna run, swim & gym till I drop dead! :S Now my swimming skills and breathe taking is improving. :D Shall go sea diving with Genevieve when I'm a pro! :D Can't wait for that to happen and I can't wait for her to be back from Australia. Missing her.. Gonna pick her up on 12 Dec at her place to drive her for shisha and nasi briyani. Can't wait. :)

2010-11-14T02:47:00.005+08:00

Driving License is here!! But... Ain't really happy about it anymore. :(

Why? I'm just a puppet driver after all. Seriously no fun; sick of it with the amazing "guide" by my dad. I get his point and concern but... ARGHHHH!!! Longggggggggg story. Less than 24 hours ago, I just had a big quarrel with him about the whole issue.

I'm just so tempted to get Class 2B for fun.. Then one year later, get 2A and get a motorbike... SUPER 4!!! But... My Bestie... DON'T ALLOW!! Sighhhh. SO DEPRESSED! T.T

I want to rent a car but.. I need/want to "clear my debt" first. :( I'm just so tired with some certain people in my life. I just need a fresh start.. Or maybe it's more than that?

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You know..? Sometimes my parents are such a joke.

Firstly - They let me carry hei guo (scapegoat).

SHIT!! I shouldn't made that big mistake!!! Now my brother is blaming me for everything. Well done!

Secondly - They are unhappy with me because during the weekends, I'm working longggg hours. (e.g. 12-16hrs/day)

What's wrong with that anyway? I need money what!!

Thirdly- Pushing me to clear my "debt".

So I decided to work long hours to clear my debt. Then they tell me not to work so much and I said I need to clear my debts mah. And they replied me... "No one pushing you to clear the debt what!! Why you so silly?!?!!". WHAT THEEEEE...!!!!!!!!!! No comments. :/

Isn't this amazing or what? *roll eyes*

2010-10-25T19:51:00.004+08:00

I just realised I didn't mention that....

I PASSED MY 2nd TP!! WOOHOO!! CAN DRIVE!!!

But.... -.- Last night, I crashed my dad's vehicle side glass door. :( SIGH!

Was having this guiltiness & a mixture of mixed feelings last night. I'm glad that my dad didn’t make me feel worse after the incident. I'm sorry & thank you, Daddy. :)

2010-10-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

Already broken, already gone

Already know you're moving on

I'm a breathing, talking

Dead man, walking

Already see it, in your face

Already someone, in my place

I'm a breathing, talking

Dead man, walking

2010-10-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

I've been sick for the 3rd day.. Recovering but fever is on/off. Took 2 days mc and I have to head back to school tomorrow. I guess I missed a lot of lessons. :( Sometime is really tiring to be sick. Hopefully I will be fine over the weekends because this coming monday is my TP. I want to pass!!

2010-10-10T02:43:00.001+08:00

This MV will blow you away... Watch this band's stage presence. It's more than just being awesome!

2010-10-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just someone to talk to.

2010-10-07T02:24:00.009+08:00

Hey Pal, I guess you know who you are. I seen your facebook status and I've been kinda worried. :(

Didn't want to text you or call you because I think you are perfectly fine and you are mature enough to think for yourself. You have your thinking of eating habit, maybe just don't go too extreme to let anyone worried. Well.. Others always looked on the outer cover of "book".

I care for you and maybe is time for us to meet up real soon. :) Love you! Cheers!

I have you in my heart. Will be there for you if you need me. :)

2010-10-03T03:24:00.008+08:00

Have you noticed...

From a far distance, I'll put a smile(d) on my face (sweetly) whenever I meet up with you?

And a hug is a must. :) To let you know how much I love(d) you. I never tell you this because I wish/hope that one day, you will notice it and let me know how you feel about my doing.

Now I mentioned it here because I want you to cherish me a little more. Can you? How much do you know me? :)

2010-10-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

Have you ever wondered why.... Life is so tough?

When my life is tough, I get stronger. So I'm enjoying it even though it can be very tiring. :)

Can you play a song for me? Or maybe can you sing with me? :)

2010-10-01T23:45:00.003+08:00

Put your hands all over me please talk to me, talk to me

Tell me everything, it's gonna be alright

Put your hands all over me please walk with me, walk with me now

Love is a game you say play me and put me away

Put your hands all over me

All over me

ARGHHH!! I'm so addicted to it!

2010-09-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

Maroon 5 - No Curtain Call

One of the best song, I ever heard. :) I'm in love with Maroon 5.

[Verse 1:]

You say you need someone

But everybody does

I'm no different than you

I just believe what I do

You point your finger at

Everyone but yourself

And blame the ones that you love

Who're only tryin' to help

[Bridge:]

As it's winding down to zero

I am yours like a hero

I'll see this through

There's so much me and you

Take this enemy together

Fight these demons off forever

Forever forever forever

[Chorus:]

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

I won't stop until it's done

No curtain call, I will not fall

This may be the one we've been waiting for

No curtain call, just take it all

[Verse 2:]

I have no time for fear

Or people in my ear

Head down and running so fast

Try not to dwell on the past

I'm fighting through this pain

And things I cannot change

Running right into the flame

Rather than running away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

[2nd Bridge:]

Sweat drips down from every angle

Love your body as it gathers in a pool by your feet

You turn up the heat

Tossin' and turnin', you cannot sleep

Quietly weep, your in too deep

[Chorus x2]

2010-09-28T01:12:00.002+08:00

I can't seem to get rid of that image in my mind. It seem like that moment of gorgeousness is imprinted in my mind and I can't get rid of it. It's kinda haunting me every moment when I think about it... I like that moment... When can I see it again? Just one more time will work perfectly fine for me. :)

2010-09-20T23:48:00.003+08:00

I had a bad dream last night. :( I dreamt that my bestie, Cheryl.... Die!!! A car knocked her down.. I woke up, asking myself... "OMG! Is this real?" I need to text her now!!!!!!! I told her everything about my dream and I demanded her to use traffic lights everywhere she go..

Cheryl: Hahahaha. OMG! You super kia si for me sia! I don't want lah. Later I press the traffic light then no car... I stand there like a idiot. You want me to look like a fool meh?

Me: -.- YES!!! Rather then you die, right??!!! :(

So emo loh after that... Don't know what's up with me. Well.. For sure now, I don't think I can afford to lose her. My heart won't be able to take it.

And I told her that I love her very much till the end of the earth. :)

She said, "Omg. I thought its universe lor. :( "

Me: Isn't it the same??! Tskk!! I sound like a.. Your bf uh? :/

C: Ya la. -.- TMD (Ta Ma De aka "Your mother")

Buey tahan two of us leh! Wahahaha! Yeahhh!! Meeting her tomorrow!!!!!!

2010-09-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

Finally met up with Jie. Both of our schedule were so packed. But she kept meeting up with that ROTTEN EGG! Lol. Whatever! We went to watch Step Up 3. It was pretty good but not as good as Step Up 2... The impact of the music is not "WOW" enough, I guess.

Session-ing at TCC. Oops! Took her photo, she gonna kill me for this!

2010-09-05T22:24:00.027+08:00

ARGHHHHH!!!

I'm feeling like I'm just a piece of SHIT when I come to some certain friendship. I'm always caught up in the middle of somewhere and somehow with someone! I really hate it! I can't really rate myself from the scale of 1-10. Like seriously? WTH! Yes, I do have quite big group of friends in my life. But that doesn't mean... ****!! Arghhhhh! I think I am a good friend and I'm nice to almost everyone. I do build relationship with everyone but not many can have this "strong" relationship of mine with all of you.

Maybe I can give an example:

Good Friend "A" will be "jealous" / "upset" with me because I spend time with Good Friend "B". Then Good Friend "C" will be "jealous" / "upset" with me because I spend time with Good Friend "A" & "B". All my Good Friend "A", "B" and "C" will come together and tell me... "Is ok, you go and spend time with him/her, ok? I'm just fine. I know you care and love him/her more."

Arghhh!! Come on! What is more? I love all of you. Sometime is not easy to love and spend time with everyone at one go. Unless you want me to combine all my good friends together and we shall hang out some time soon? Sound pretty cool? My dearest close/ good friends, trust me, I do love all of you. You see.. You have your time, love, personal stuffs, school, work and blah blah... Me toooo.. :( I'll find time for you, just give me time. Will you? Can you? Please. At least, I do care by texting you, asking how are you, facebook-ing and etc. (Sometimes you don't even bother replying me back. What's up? Angry with me? I'm sorry.)

My lovely friends, sometime I do get very upset too when I see all of you spending time with other friends & things in your life. I don't complain because I don't want you to feel bad. I'm human too, I have feelings. We are not perfect. I tried my best to be your good friend, will you do the same for me? Please. I rather keep it silent then whining all about it. Nobody like it. Am I right? I can't satisfy everyone's "wants" & "needs". Yeah. Probably I am important to you, that is why, you are unhappy with me. I understand but I'm not yours at all times. I'm Joann, only one Joann Quek. I'm not omnipotent. I don't have mighty power, I can't be there for everyone at one go. I tried to my best to feed everyone's "Love Tank". At least, I tried. I believed that I most probably have been there for most of you and with my unconditional love. :)

You get what I mean? No matter how imperfect you are.. You are still gonna be my friend. Good friend. Maybe there are times, I do get annoyed by you, your personality, your character, your disgusting bad habits etc.. But if I have already build this "strong" friendship with you. You got my mutual trust on you and no one can break it unless you, yourself. Please don't ever do that to me because you gonna break this big heart of mine and it's not easy to fix it back. :) I love all of you. xoxo. :)

And please don't push me away when I'm really available to spend time with you. Please don't break up this friendship because at the end of day, you make yourself upset, I'll be upset too. We just need to jump over these hurdles and have a breakthrough together. Cheers!

2010-09-05T00:21:00.013+08:00

Yup. I just changed my bloggie's skin! I just got so bored with the previous one! :) I'm now listening to "Love Story" by Beethoven. Can anyone play this lovely dovey piece of music for me? Cos I want to capture this unexplainable "feel" while listening live. Well.. Somehow I wish that you can be the one but I guess is impossible now.

Today, I went through some stuffs in my hard disk.. Realising that I'm feeling so much better now.. Maybe subconsciously I just grew out of it. :) No longer holding onto what I shouldn't and also stop feeling for this "weird" pain. :D

Sighhhhh.. I've been spending time with so many people except myself. Is like feeling very unsatisfied with myself. This feeling is like you haven't spend time with your bestie in the longest time. :( AND EXAMS ARE COMING!!!!!!!!! :'(

Sometimes I just don't understand why humans.... In relationship.... We are just so complicated. We love, we hate, we praise, we honour, we backstab, we share, we care, we give, we take, we ignore, we sleep, we dream, we hope, we wish, we promise, we break promises, we follow, etc.. Is it all about "we"? Or maybe in the first place... Everything is just "I". I guess I've given up witnessing everything about BRG. What's up with my friends? Just crazily needed "someone" in their lives for THAT MOMENT. *rolled eyes*

I'M HUNGRRRREEEE!! :(

2010-09-05T00:00:00.009+08:00

I have been spending time with my Bestie, Cheryl and my Close friend, Xiaoli.

I love them very much. :)

2010-09-04T23:48:00.005+08:00

We are just PHOTO BOOTH FREAKS!

2010-08-20T14:07:00.000+08:00

I miss you so.......

2010-08-20T01:56:00.007+08:00

ARGHHHHHHH!! I FAILED MY TP!!!!!!! *)#$**&%$&*

TP: "Actually you can drive lah. But I think you should come back and try again."

Me, in my heart: "Thanks uh. It's very encouraging."

Damn it lah! He anyhow demerit points sia! I SWEAR! He bombed a lot of things like.....

1) In circuit, I do all my course and parking nicely. He kpkb all the way. When I go to the road... He never say anything but when I'm done.. We go to debrief room. Then he suddenly bomb said, "You know the traffic lights there.... Got a cyclist in front and you didn't never give way.... In my heart, I was like, "WTH!!! My whole entire driving trip don't even have a pedestrian crossing the road lah. How to have a f***-ing cyclist?!" Even traffic lights are on my side! If there was a cyclist, why didn't you jam brake me? &^@$^!(*#&, RIGHT A NOT?!

2) In front- road hazard, I slow down and change line. He also demerit! Stated in my list: SAYING THAT I NEVER SLOW DOWN!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! 1 and a half car length and driving at the speed of 45km/h? Not slow meh?????????????

3) I didn't do sharp turning at the circuit and dont know why he demerit me for that lah. I only know I did wide turning which he did demerit me too and I already feel so guilty for that lah for not being cautious enough.

4) BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I should just demerit him of his nonsense!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! Now my next TP is on the 18 October 2010! SO ANNNNNOOOYYYINNGGGG!! I just wanna drive now!!!!!!

2010-08-11T23:29:00.010+08:00

Pulau Ubin Camping Trip with my lovely dovey classmates!

It's just simply F-U-N!

Setting up the tent!

Jeannie, Shahiran, Angel and Anisah!

Me starting up the kerosene lamp!

Old kampong style! COOLIO!

Angel's idea to buy "hor fun" & "fried rice"!

See lah! In the end, Sufian helped you eat!

Buey tahan her loh! Wanna eat camp food and also try out Ubin's food. -.-

Big appetite uh you?

Camp Fire "Ceremony" started by me!

Me & Abang (Big Brother in malay)!

Whacking all the camp food!

It was fun trip! We went trekked 2/3 of Ubin! We bathed with "un-purify" water! We got bite by ants! We "accidentally" ate mini grasshoppers! Because it hopped into our food! Etc etc.. After all these, our relationship seem like...... C-L-O-S-E-R! We talked about how we feel, our future, our plan, our lives, etc.. Make me feel so good because I realised I still have friends who know what they want/do for their future. =D Make you feel so motivated to go for bigger steps now! WAH! Our next holidays plan is to go Batam: Kelong House, which Shahiran's dad is building one.. SO COOL! Love this bunch of my friends. =D

2010-08-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

Woooooo!! I'm so tempted to get motorbike license now!! It's all BEN LEE's FAULT!! Wahahaaha! I can't wait to get my car license tooo... Sooooonnn!!!!!!!! Very soon!

2010-07-26T13:27:00.002+08:00

GETTING MYSELF FIT!! Jogging, training muscles, maybe even swimming!! One of my dream is coming to past. I cant wait for my Nike Plus to come! :D

2010-07-25T22:28:00.001+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait to get my car license!

I'm so gonna drive all day long!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-26T15:10:00.008+08:00

A TRIP TO PULAU UBIN (With Sy jie-jie & friends)

It was a fun trip! Jie and I spent some good quality over there. We'll be recording down what we planning to do and what we did! In a digital photo album way! Cool, right?

Here are some photos for everyone and anyone to enjoy! Ubin really changed alot! Whoever is reading this now... Make a trip to UBIN soooonn and ENJOY the NATURE!! VERY SHIOK!!! I swear you will fall in love with the nature! And I ride the bicycle till my ass damn pain loh because of the stupid bicycle seat lah! (T.T) So when you go there to rent a bicycle, must sure you go and find the most comfortable seat in the whole wide world! =)

2010-06-26T14:31:00.015+08:00

YESSS!! It has been a loooooooooonnnggg time since I blogged. Oh well.. Lost my interest in blogging already! Well... But ain't planning to close down my blog though. ....Let me just update myself right now!!

1) I love my current life to the max!

2) I love most of my classmates to the max!

3) I love working at Subway once again!

My NEW Hairstyle & 14mm Earholessss!

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My Lovely Dovey Classmates. =)

Shoulder Ride! (From School Canteen to Level 4 Classroom)

My Classmates's hp!! They have me on their phoness! Woot~

I guess they really love me heh? =)

Piggy back-ed Cheryl from ECP underpass till Tao Nan School Bus Stop! The longest Piggy Backy Ride for someone in my life. Perspired to the MAX! LOL! But it was fun!!

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My Xin Gan Bao Bei Bestie, Cheryl!!!

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10 years later....

A Primary 4 Reunion BBQ!!

(I guess we are still as cheeky as before!)

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Met up with Xiaoli after a looooonngggg time....

2010-05-09T15:33:00.003+08:00

!@*()^#@#*(*#%$@*)@(&(*@^(*@

I FAILED MY FTT LAST TUESDAY!!!!!!!

2 questions- I don't know. 1 question - careless.

I went back for a trial test the next following day and I got 50/50!

Why TP set the standard so high now?

In order to pass FTT, you need to score 48/50!

='(

2010-05-09T15:02:00.009+08:00

I havent post anything on my blog for quite some time already uh. Ok. Just update about my life a little bit with everyone.

I been having fun in school, had been drawing & designing. School is a perfect place for me. I just can't wait to graduate and move on to higher education. =) About busy-ness? Compare to work, I'm not as busy as before. So I guess I'm pretty fortunate.

22 April 2010

I brought jiejie to Admiral Cheng Ho Singapore Harbour Dinner Cruise for her birthday. It was supposedly Singapore Flyer but she managed to "expose" me (which was quite damn annoying) and so I kinda blessed at last minute, I still managed to find this dinner cruise to celebrate her 22nd birthday. =)

I'm glad that she love it.

She posted this on facebook :

"Early celebration with Joann Quek

Was supposed to have dinner @ Flyers but because I managed to expose her plans, she managed to surprise me dinner in a small cruise.

Happiest birthday because she made the effort to not just celebrate but also to surprise me.

After dinner, we'd sometime to stand @ the front dock of the boat. It was so windy, so comfortable. ♥♥♥ "

Here are some photos:

2010-04-11T20:03:00.003+08:00

NO MORE LONG PANTS AT HOME!!

I picked my courage to "confess" to my dad that I have tattoos!! Heeehee. He reacted very well. I just felt very happy that he can accept it. =) I dont know what to say now. BUT THANK GOD!!! Hahahahha. Love my dad. =)

2010-03-26T23:23:00.009+08:00

I've been busy clearing my work. I guess I can't wait to get over and done with my job and prepare for school. Well.. Although I've been quite busy these few weeks, I'm glad I tried dig out a lot of time for my friends to spend time with me. My mind has been quite messy, need to clear some thoughts but I'm glad that I still stay strong as usual. =)

I went out with Xiaoli yesterday.. She's been thinking of what to get for my birthday. I told her I want a watch!! And I really do!

Is either a......

Adidas Originals Metal Square Watch

Fossil Jake Black Dial

The price is a killer too! Hahahaha. She's trying to find ideas to come out with the cash together with Ben, Fiona & Celeste!

Well.. I hope they can get me the Adidas though I really want to have an analog watch.

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FINAALLLLYY..... Met up with The-Re today!!!!!! I'm so happy to see her.. Kicking & living!! Kidding. Yeah! Managed to spend some good time with her, gonna meet her up again on thursday to visit Adrian's shop. =) She also accompanied me to my job interview. My job interview seems quite good. Hope I get the job because... The pay is very appealing and also I can save up tons of money for my future plans.

I'm beginning to save money! Like.. Really down to earth, slowly bit by bit (rather than bigger portion when in the end, I will "accidentally" spend it). It just reminded me of when I was much younger, came back home with my remaining pocket money and drop it all in my piggy bank. Heehee.. Precious moment of me! Well.... My 2 small tins piggy bank are going to get filled up soon. I just can't wait to see how much I have saved!!! I just bought another 4 bigger tins yesterday with Xiaoli at Daiso. I also encouraged her to save bit by bit and she bought herself 2 tins! I'm HAPPY for her! =) Gold tin for $1 coin, Silver tin for all silver coins! WHEE~

Marriage Vow?

2010-03-14T00:10:00.003+08:00

I was thinking about...

The Marriage Vow

I, (name), take you, (name), to be my (husband/wife). I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life. I, (name), take you, (name), for my lawful (husband/wife), to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.

I guess for now.. I cannot image myself saying this vow. Why?! Because I can't even take care of my parents and what make me feel that I can do that for my spouse? Need to question myself all over again. What about you?

2010-03-12T22:33:00.003+08:00

31 more days to S-C-H-O-O-L!

I'm feeling very anxious for school. I just can't wait and I just got myself a new pair of running shoes for PE lesson and also wanting to go to gym. =) Wanna train my arm strength!!! Well.. Time to have new friends, new environment, new part time job, new challenges in life, new dreams etc.. Feeling so youthful now.. I guess is pretty much a different feeling because.. I'm learning how to be more independent on my own. Oh! I'm so glad that I don't have to pay my school fee in cash because... I can use edusave. Well... I'm glad that I won a lot of awards last time when I was in primary & secondary school days and of cos, not forgetting my parents also had pump some money for me when I was in government school. So happy that I can save money for other plans.

The past 2 months, I have a lot of things in my mind.. SIGH!!! I need to find alternative to solve my problems!

2010-02-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

Drive.. Driving.. Drove.. Driven.. =)

2010-02-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

WAH SEH!! I just so pissed today.

First... My handphone failed on me. Only can sms now.. Yes... Can receive calls but can't hear clearly whoever is talking to me on the phone.

Secondly, it was when I was having my driving lesson today. Then this silly nissan car suddenly speed up so fast from the back, cut into my lane (I couldn't see him already cos is blocked by a certain angle by my car) when I was about to change lane (some more my car's body was already half way into the middle lane) And I almost bang into him sia. So heng that I reacted fast enough. If not.... *BANG* AMBULANCE! One more... This stupid 'P' plate driver hor... Wah!! Felt like slapping him loh. People first time do U-turn, right? Then will bound to be slow, right? And some more, traffic light just turned green (less than 1 sec), right?! THEN HE KEPT HORNING ME NON STOP!!!!! $@)(%)(@*$_!)(#

Thirdly, I've planned to skip english lesson for my mum's bday and sms my dad, to ask him to pick me up at SSDC after my lesson. When I was done with my lesson, I called him and asked him.. Where he was. Then he said... "Aiya. Not celebrating already lah. Since you're not interested to celebrate then celebrate for what?" NABEI!!!! I hang up the phone and went for my english lesson in the end.

Later on... I got home at 10.30pm. I found out that is my mum who didn't really want to celebrate because she's not feeling well. =/ Speeeeechhhlessss...

2010-02-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

YOU'RE WELCOME, TRACEY!!!!

2010-01-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

I AM ACCEPTED!!!

getting ready to go to school soon!!!

2010-01-28T14:53:00.007+08:00

I just came from interview at ITE MacPherson. Well... It was pretty fun. I managed to know 2 new friends- Vivian & Farhan. LOL! Of course, I was the one who broke the ice.. We kinda click quite well... So 3 of us were so dumb.. As one of the teacher told us to wait here.. But in the end, we found out that is the wrong course, he was refering to.. So yeah.. We went up to level 3 to the auditorium to take our drawing test. We had our colour blindness test etc... The test begin..

Section 1:

Given a piece of paper with cartoon characters. Pick 2 to draw.

My Character 1

My Character 2

Section 2:

This section is to showcase the drawing style that you are familiar with and your ability to visualize. You may draw whatever you like. Cartoon or managa/anime drawings are accepted.

And... I drew the side of the campus's auditorium where I was sat there. =)

Section 3:

Qn: "This section is to test your ability to communicate by visual means and flair in creative expression. 1) Given below is an expression in line. 2) Develop it further into something visually exciting, using colours, lines and shapes...

This is my favourite part of the test.... AND... I DREW A DINOSAUR!!! T-REX!! =) It was really fun! I enjoyed the whole process.

ITE will call me later in the afternoon whether am I accept a not... I really hope that everything will run smoothly now...

2010-01-27T23:55:00.001+08:00

Yeah! I got into the course that I applied for. =) Digital Animation. I took an urgent leave from work today for tomorrow's interview. I'm prepared for the interview... Just feeling a little nervous now. But I'm fine.

Well.. I'm pretty exhausted about life. Not that life sucks.. Just tired of growing up so fast at times. Felt like it would be nice if things "supposedly" to be the way it is. There are so many things, I haven't get a chance to express. Well.. I guess I really been living in my "darkness" for the longest time.. Knew that I may snap sooner or later but still trying to bear with it. Maybe because I know it may not be the best solution after all. Hopefully by this week, I will clear out everything in my heart and on my mind for the longest time. =)

2010-01-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

I cannot understand why am I.... So nice. I just feel like giving up on being nice. Not that I do not have a temper. I just do not want to show the frustration side of me. It'll ruin my day and everyone's.

Somehow I'm feeling very discouraged.. Well.. I didn't give up. I went on to find my own encouragement.. So that I can move on from where I'm standing on. =) Jo... Dark cloud will soon be over.. =)

2010-01-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

I've lost my mind!

2010-01-22T00:53:00.007+08:00

Sometimes.. I lose motivation.

Sometimes.. I lose passion.

Sometimes.. I am becoming very selfish.

Sometimes.. I just have to do what I have to do.

Sometimes.. Is not about having it.

Sometimes.. Is not just believing.

Sometimes.. I guess I deserved it.

Sometimes.. I am truly sorry.

Sometimes.. I wish I could stop that.

Sometimes.. I wish you would know my reasons.

Sometimes.. I thought it would be nice.

Sometimes.. I thought it was the best solution.

Sometimes.. I guess I did not have to do that.

Sometimes.. I should have learn how to control.

Sometimes.. I stuck inside my heart when I do not let things out.

Sometimes.. I just want to test you.

Sometimes.. I failed you.

Sometimes.. I cheered you up.

Sometimes.. I wish you can understand me.

Sometimes.. I miss you.

Sometimes.. I guess you never fail to be on my mind.

Sometimes.. I guess I still have little room for you.

Sometimes.. I given up all hopes.

Sometimes.. I just want to walk beside with you.

Sometimes.. I just want to hear you out.

Sometimes.. I just want things to be the way it meant to be.

Sometimes.. I can never understand what was with you and all these things about.

Sometimes.. Your smile brighten up my day.

Sometimes.. Your presence can strengthen me.

Sometimes.. I noticed I love staring at you at distance.

Sometimes.. I know you were trying to cheer me up.

Sometimes.. I keep quiet.

Sometimes.. I am loud.

Sometimes.. I am emotional.

Sometimes.. I am straightforward.

Sometimes.. I can be very hurting.

Sometimes.. I can be very caring.

Sometimes.. I will take responsibilities the way I need it.

Sometimes.. I am determined to do what it suppose to be.

Well.. Sometimes.. Things/people/loved ones have to come and go. That's why, never take that part of your life too serious because it/they can be very dangerous.

2010-01-20T17:08:00.003+08:00

My throat is still sore-ing! LOL! Cough till my whole body ache sia.. Sigh.. I really no idea on how should I move on now...

2010-01-17T01:16:00.003+08:00

I'm having very bad sore throat now.. Can't really speak. I think this is the worst sore throat I ever had in my whole life. Plus on top of that, I had high fever on and off for 2 days. I have no idea why I fell so sick. For the longest time, I haven't had any fever and sore throat. But now.. I guess I have to take extra care of myself. I need to stay strong and healthy to live on and fulfill my dreams and goals. Nobody can stop me. I just need to listen to my heart and mind for the next move. =)

2010-01-12T22:52:00.003+08:00

Everything seem to be so sweet in the beginning with my parents but whenever come to education, I just dislike them, make me feel so angry. I do not know I love or dislike them. I just no longer really want to figure that out...

Anyway things didn't turn out the way I planned. After the O level results was released, I quickly went online to apply the course I want in ITE... They did not show the course which I can selected and I decided to call the Headquarter... You know what? They told me they are not opening up the course. What the..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They also do not know why..... In the first place, why did you posted up on your bloody website for? Give a person a hope and a goal to aim for and now.... TOTALLY DESTROY IT IN THE PERSON'S FACE!!! Arghhhhh!!! Well.... I went on to sign up for digital animation and product design first. I also wrote into NAFA to check whether can they accept me for my "special case".

I'm stuck. I don't feel like talking about it... Sigh.. I'll stay strong. Just feeling upset for time being..

2010-01-08T21:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes... Nothing can compared to the pain that your parents gave.

Well.. Am I that useless? I've no idea. I know what I want for my future. I know what I need to do to get my future. Till today, my parents still don't get me. This morning, my dad finally admitted that he have the money for me to study but he said he have no confidence in me because he don't think I'll do well for my studies and what's the point of paying for me. Yeah. Probably I've disappointed him when I was back then in EC. But what can I do now? Return back to future? I can't. He don't even want me to go to ITE. Since he don't want to pay for my education then what's the matter to him anyway even if I want to go ITE. I never even once thought or want to go ITE but is just that now.. I don't have the choice, I have no funds. I don't want to be stuck at my level forever. If I do have the funds, then why did I even choose to work over studies... That is like purely stupid!!

So now what?! What can I do?! Probably just watch me. If I fail, I will admit to my fate. If I succeed, don't come bootlicking me... Same goes for everyone. To think about it again, at times... I felt that I really make a mistake to go to EC because if not, I won't be so "stuck" here. But again... If back then, I make my way to ITE to the course that I didn't like.. I could be where I am again. Right now.. I really hope that I can get into the course that I want. Do it well and probably get into poly, if possible I wish that I can get some scholarship and don't have to rely on my parents.

2 days back, I was talking to AL on the phone and he offered some "good stuff". After listening to him, I really feel so blessed to have him as my friend; an extremely good friend. How to get a friend like him? Of cos, on my side, I have to work hard to show him and do a good job together when we launch our company in 2 years time. =)

2010-01-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

WHEEEEE~ I've completed BIOSHOCK!!! FUN!!!

2010-01-02T13:27:00.004+08:00

I'm totally so addicted to Bioshock right now. Almost every night when I come back from work, I'll PLAY!!! I guess AL is right. First, it was Call of Duty 4 and now Bioshock... I've become a computer game addict. Oh yeah! Well... I seldom play computer games.. So probably just smack it all for once! =)

I'm doing planning for my 2010. Just kinda feeling nervous for school. Though the application is not open yet, I seem getting all ready for it. Oh well.. I hope I can get in, hope that things will go the way I planned. Another thing is getting a part time job. At least $6-7/hr cos I need to save up for school, to return money to my bro for my laptop and driving license. Right now... I'm chiong-ing my license. I don't have much money to do it but my bro wants to loan me first. Nice right? Aye. My parents ain't wanting to loan me. NEVERMIND!

I want to study very hard once I get into the course I want, ain't going to waste time no more. I'm gonna excel from there, if I make it big. The first thing, I'll ever do is..... INVEST MY MONEY WISELY! One of my goals is to earn at least half a million when I hit 25. I don't know will I succeed a not but I can try. So... I have about 5 years to do that. =) Sound good heh? I think so too. LOL!

My right ear got infection again! Ultimate pain! Sigh.. Letting it heal right now, paying full attention to it. Hoping that it will recover asap.

Ahhh~ It's a brand new year again! Well... I didn't celebrate it, just felt.. Ehh.. Maybe no hweeling to do it for this year.

I have 4 new year's resolutions.

1) Driving License

2) To further my skills in photoshop, illustrator and flash.

3) To be able at the end of the year save about $800-$1000 (if schooling) or $1800-$2400 (Working).

4) If I'm schooling.. Of cos is studies very good!! If not, motorbike license!

CHEERS, EVERYONE!! I'm heading to Bioshock now.

2009-12-25T20:18:00.002+08:00

HOLY CRAPS!! This morning, Irene sms me and told me they are back from New York. The reason they went there because Sunni intended to relocate there. MAD PEOPLE ON EARTH! Speechless but I'm glad that they are back.

2009-12-25T05:11:00.006+08:00

Sometimes life is disgusting.. Well.. I'm not talking about my life. Generally I just felt very disgusted with people who don't work hard but want money to come in hand so easily. Yes, we have our lazy moments but I don't think it should be a long period kinda moment. Well.. My generation people are just very spoilt.. Including me. Cos now.. I have the habit of wanting my dad to pick me up after work.. So to save money on transportation.

I guess my generation really "abused" our parents too much. Right now, my parents are making me feeling.. Life is getting tougher as you grow older. The worse part is when you started to earn your own money, they really kinda washed their hands off from you.. To make you learn how to survive. I really appreciated their "plans" but again... Still.. Sometimes... I really wanna give up. There are two things that motivate me to go on are when I see most of my friends are still relying on their parents for a living.. It's just make me stronger in a way. Secondly, I have Jie & AL to motivate me; AL is rich but he don't rely on his parents which most of the rich kids are not like that anymore. The best is Jie have already build a strong foundation that even if she don't have her dad to support her, she still can live and much better than what her dad can provide her. I really admire them very much. So I always tell myself not to rely on my parents so much. Yes, there are many times I need my parents' help but maybe they know that I can pull through.. So they make it tougher for me.

I'm really tired somehow.. But I know I can pull this through and it will make me stronger. I must enjoy this process; suffer now and enjoy it later in life. =)

2009-12-24T11:27:00.005+08:00

I guess it been awhile since blogging.. Well.. I think I will move on with the Sunni's issue for now.. Cos I don't want held it for long as I'm thinking to further studies; my dreams. Right now, I have no money and didn't have good results for O Level..... Amazingly ITE just open a new course called "Visual Communications", so I going to apply for that with my N level which I scored not so bad. I emailed ITE on how high is my percentage to get in, they seem like.... Giving me high hope. Cool! And luckily I have portfolio, I guess I should be able to do it. =) I have no choice right now. $1000++ for 2 years school fee, not so bad hor. All thanks to government who funded local school so much money. THANKS!

I've booked a day with her already... I need to talk to my HOD soon about my plans. I'm gonna find a part time job while schooling... Since my parents don't want to support me then I need to get stronger in life. I can survive!! Then... I'm gonna give up on taking driving license. Cos I'm thinking to get motorbike license first!!! WHEEE!!!

"A weird MIA case"

2009-12-12T20:33:00.002+08:00

Well... I really have a very weird feeling about Sunni and Irene. They kinda suddenly "disappeared" in my life. I don't know what's going on. It's very strange when both of them, especially Sunni always doting on me and then.... DA-TA! GONE!

Ehhh.. Maybe I may be the one who gave them too much "brightness" in their lives... As in.... You know... Girls are very insecure by nature. I'm not bad mouthing.. Maybe Irene don't like me hanging out with them so often. Not saying Irene dislike me but.. Yaya. I guess everyone know what I'm trying to drive at. Plus Sunni always talk to her about me, like maybe all day long..?? Sigh.. I feel so puzzled right now and whatever I'm saying are just making wild guesses.

Can you imagine almost everyday, every lunch, I go out with them? Sometimes dinner too. The best part is... Sunni somewhat became like my dad, he enjoyed driving me around (exactly like my dad). So whenever he is free, he will come to my office, pick me up and send me back home. They are very nice to me. So nice till.... You feel like as if they are your biological parents loh. Even Irene will ask me whether do I have enough money to eat a not? Look out for me etc.. But now how can they suddenly disappeared in my life?? Not saying I'm using/misusing them, I never once did that. Actually I don't even allow them to pay for my food but they always call me to keep my money because to them, they think they earn more than I do, so is their "responsibilities" to take care of me. Of cos there are days, I'm really broke but they don't even mind paying everything for me. So nice lah!

According to my memory, I never done anything wrong to them. Before me, they also treated one of their employee like that too, love them like as if is their biological son. Buy him Xbox, handphone, bring him out to eat, buy him clothes, etc.. But that employee "betrayed" their trust and break their hearts. Irene cried when she was telling me everything about how much they loved him but the guy, he... Yup! THEN WHAT DID I DO?!!! Sigh.... I seriously don't know what happened to them lah. I guess I really misses them a lot but they are not replying my sms, the last time I called Sunni, his hp is off. I bought gifts for them from Bali and... What should I do with it now?

Another thing... I'm making a guess is.... Sunni is in trouble. I think is not very nice to say this part on blog but again... How can it be?? He is not some crook guy lah. ARGGHHHH!!! ANNOYING!!! Where are both of you?? I already texted you guys... Like if both of you don't like me, can tell me straight, no need to avoid me. Is like.. I can understand, respect both of you and your decision. I will be better off with your reasons than rather both of you leaving me clueless lah. Sigh. =(

2009-12-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!! I came back home this morning at 6am. I had a birthday celebration last night at Changi Beach!! It was CHERYL PHUA'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!! Well... Of cos, I gave her alot of presents. We drink quite a lot. I think Cheryl was like.... A little high? Lol. I guess everyone too lah. It was fun to mingle around with some people. Enjoyed myself yesterday.

Anyway my blog is like..... Somehow dying lah. Probably as I grow older... I think I don't have the desire to talk more about my life. LOL!

2009-12-09T19:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I'm just so angry in life that I kept almost everything to myself. Digesting all the pain, angriness, hurts etc.. I felt like I screwed my life up with all these wrong choices. Well... It just drained out so much strength in me and I really feel like... Dying? Well.. I guess it just serve me right who didn't make the right choice from the very beginning of my life.

I didn't treasure time the way I should. I know what I want to do in life but again, I'm always stuck in my situation. It's always about money that make your life "stop" here. If my parents could only afford my education right now.. Things may change. I don't want to live on like this, doing the same old job. My passion is design. I may or may not go far in design in my life but what I know is I do love what I'm suppose to do and good at. I don't need to be filthy rich (even though I know that is one of my dream) but I have this feeling- If I'm in designing line, I already can feel the richness of it. I can't buy my passion, my dreams or even sell them. I already have determined this is my life. Just like everything is already recorded in the book of your destiny. Just like there is a phrase, it says, "Every taste of bitterness comes with a little bit of sweetness."

I feel like sleeping now.... Cos I cried in the late afternoon while having heart to heart session with my HOD. Well... Is nothing much. Just feeling emotional that point of time cos it was hitting my weakness and plus I haven't cry for quite some time already. So I just need to let my tears flow down my cheeks for that moment. LOL! I'm still the same yesterday and today.

I suddenly have the urge to quit my job right now to take a break and move on from there.

Right now, I feel I've suffered for quite a while already... Sigh.. When are my parents releasing me to further my education?

2009-12-07T11:17:00.003+08:00

Is the ignorance that hurts. Probably I've let go and probably I didn't. I've come to a point of confusion.. Right now I'm just feeling that I accidentally "re-open" my wound again.. I guess I'm feeling emotional because I can't understand why everyone just have to hurt everyone. Why and where did selfishness come about? I've always try to avoid hurting others because I don't want to further the relationship with him/her. But again, I'm always hurting those who I love the most cos I don't want the love to go on. Well.. Maybe also because I'm really protecting myself from getting hurt again.. This is what I really called selfishness.

Sometimes the solution of leaving someone in your life is to break the person's heart deeply; leaving an ugly side of yourself, it doesn't matter anymore cos your goal is to... Get the person you love the most to forget about you. Is it a painful path.. At the end, you may or may not feel remorseful. Oh well... I just don't want to carry on anymore. It's just too much to say.

Nothing will ever last.. There is no forever.. No relationship can lasts. What you can do is just hope for the best and make every time worth to spend.. When time is up, I guess is time to say goodbye.

2009-12-05T12:47:00.004+08:00

I'm still at Bali, leaving in awhile time. I'm done with packing. I really enjoyed myself here with my colleagues. I'm glad without my parents for the passed 4 days. We have been doing devotion, spa, shopping, team building games, play games etc...

2009-11-23T00:24:00.005+08:00

I went to Sentosa with Irene, Sunni, Ben Yeo, 2 dogs (Zara & Max). We had a great fun playing with dogs and had a good nice picnic which prepared by Sunni. Yummy! It is a nice and sweet sunday!! Oh well.. After that, Sunni drove us home and I didn't really rest but watch a lot of online movies today.

And I had a bad bad bad movie today which pissed me off. LOL!!! Please don't watch 'Paranormal Activity'!!! It's not even worth a star to watch it!! Shit to 'Oren Peli' who is director & script writer! He is a total shit guy who is out there to cheat people money lah! How can you cheat your "fans/ horror movie lover" like that? Totally break everyone's trust for such craps movie he produced. Can you imagine he came up with a total of 3 parts for the ending and the best part, in the movie, he don't show all of it. Ok. It's kinda understandable but it really bring confusion to others lah. The truth is the whole movie is fake lah. Luckily I didn't pay to watch this movie. This movie have earned over $100 million with a production budget of $15,000. Seriously think about it again, the whole footage don't even need $15K to do it lah. I'm just wondering how did he even spent those money loh.. YA LAH!! Marketing loh!!!!!! Yaya. Maybe he spent the $8K to produce a "fantastic" trailer to make people to fall for his trap. And $8K on his actor/ress. Total $15K!!! SHIT HIM LAH!!

2009-11-19T16:48:00.018+08:00

City College Prom 2009!!

Fun day ever!!

Human Bingo!!

Chao for that 5 mins of our lives!!

Accidentally sabotage myself in the human bingo game.

So I have to do a nursery song with actions

which is twinkle twinkle little stars!! =/

(Oh wellsss... But I still won $5 starbucks voucher!)

Getting exciting for a game called "Guess who"? And I got it right!! Winning price: Another $5 starbucks voucher. =)

Photo session time!!

My favourite photo of the night with Angeline.

She will confirm say... OF COS LAH!!

Glenn (Mr Hollywood: Mr Vampire) , Me, Deborah, Tracey!

Jeremiah, Me, Deborah, Tracey!

Me & Jeremiah!! (Handsome boy!)

Diyanah, the Miss Hollywood!

Staff Photo!!

2 HOT LADIES- Gwen & Jermaine from night class.

(Maybe that's why they are hot? Because they are night ladies? Lol)

The ALUMNI!! (My batch people ps me. %@*&#^)

WITH JANET!! (Little cutie with the nice smell on her hair)

Well.. After all the dinner was over, the place turned into a club!!! Oh my tian!! Clubbing night!!

2009-11-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

I'm having my 3 days mc. Cos yesterday, my gastric pain relapse on me in the afternoon at 1pm... Pain till.... I have to head to hospital. So my dad drove me to TTSH at 12 midnight plus to see a doctor. I had x-ray to scan my stomach, some injection thingy which I fell asleep on (Lol. Cos I love injection which I simply don't care when the nurse is doing it for me), drank strong medicine to yeast down my pain and drained my blood for some testing. Oh well... After that I went back home at 4am with my lovey dovey mum who waited for me patiently. =) I gave her a kiss and thank her for accompanying me.

And my dad made me damn dulan lah he... WAH!! Let's not talk about it. When I was in pain, he said serve me right. Kuku sia him. I think I really don't want to go into details. Only will make me more.... &T@$(*@#)*#_#( ARGH!!!

Say Goodbye to my 10mm earholes

2009-11-08T14:09:00.003+08:00

I took out my 10 mm stud last night at 12 midnight. Letting go of my 10mm earholes wasn't easy and I can't even believe that I just did it. Well.. I guess is just another level of letting go of things that you love at times. Well.. Why am I doing this? Ehh.. I'm not very superstition kinda person but my business partner is.. He is very into fengshui. Of cos, he is not Alistair, he is Sunni! Lol. He is not really my business partner but to make it easier, yes, as for now, he is my mentor, guiding me along on how to earn money and watch how does the economics works in the market place. So he and Irene told me to close it up because if you come into business world, many people looked up to fengshui. They also said the best is keep your facial figure as good as if you were just born. Ear represent fortune, if there are huge holes at your ears, it means.... Money will leak out. So I closed it up because I don't want at the end of the day, if business fail, Sunni may or may not nag at me for not listening to him. Hahhaa. Oh well... So I shall be a good girl and close it up for his sake. Again.. He is my good friend, so I guess closing it up isn't a bad idea after all. =)

2009-11-07T17:27:00.014+08:00

Woohoo!! I have a lot of things to post. Well....

Last Monday, Sunni and Irene pick me up from my place to go lepak again. In the evening, Sunni cooked chicken chop with spaghetti and added some special recipe sauce. OH MY TIAN!!! It's HEAVENLY! I never eat such good chicken chop in the my life!!! Lovely! =) After that, he sent me home at 11pm plus and he have to miss his favourite american show. =(

Tuesday & Wednesday, I met up Irene and Sunni again but only lunch lah. Wah lau. It sounded like I don't have to work anymore loh. Fainted!!! Later my boss fire me! =(

Oh well... I was ready on thursday and set off for City College's Leadership Camp 2009 at Sarimbun Scout Camp. It was a 3 days 2 nights camp. It was fun! I really can feel and see that they grew so much and also have good attitude in this camp. This camp is really better than my batch. I think they are the best batch I ever seen. Even I enjoyed it so much. Well.. I guess everyone is spoilt; Need air con room, clean environment, no insects etc.. Well.. To me, I love to live this kinda of environment when come to camping but they are like... "Eeeyer! Why got so many mosquitos?? I came here to feed them loh!! Etc..." Hahaha. Oh well.. I didn't get any bite. Lucky me. Maybe cos mosquito know that I love them and the environment? And so they told their kaki to protect me?? Hahaha. The only thing happened to me was a lizard fell off from the ceiling and landed on my shoulder and jumped away. Well.. It was COOOLL!! =)

My dad came to the campsite to pick me up. For the first time, I feel so so so glad to see him and I decided to hug him. I just love him so much. I'm at home right now alone, resting, spending some time with myself and my lovey dovey parents went out for dating. =) I just love them very much. I really can't imagine life without them.

Well.. Right now.. I think I'm missing Sunni!!! To me, Sunni is like a good friend; A friend who love his friend so much that he will give/do almost everything he can. Where to find such good friend on earth right now? I guess not in my generation anymore. Only the older generation who know what is friendship. Well.. Sigh.. I'm very worried about something, worried that Irene might get insecure, if I keep hanging out with Sunni so often. Or maybe... I'm just thinking too much lah. Well.. I'm getting a little bit uncomfortable when Irene always have to look at me when I talk to Sunni. Nevermind. Let's drop this topic.

Sunni is treating me like his good brother or buddy. Ku ku loh he.. Everytime called me, "Bro!" Anyhow la he. I told him to call me "Sister" but he don't want. Dulan. I like him so much because only he will know how to appreciate my work. He can see me doing in this designing line for my future and he support my dreams so much that he said he want to support my education. (Well.. I'm not putting high hope on his words right now cos if he didn't or not able to do that, my heart may break.) Well.. I don't know whether I want to pursue my education now a not cos I more likely want to go for short courses, buy books and read up and explore everything myself. From there, I will know I can do 100x times better than just going to school to study and get a stupid cert. Of cos, getting a cert in Singapore, is all about getting secured in life. Well.. I really want to get a master degree in Designing too. Too bad. In Singapore, there is no way for you not to complete and pass all the academic subjects... And then you're able to enter to the courses that you want/love. Is not that I can't make it, it will just take me a long time to score well in my academic subjects. I just don't want to waste time going back since I'm doing not so well, so just must well.. Work towards my dreams. =)

2009-10-30T09:17:00.004+08:00

This bloody whole week, I've been meeting up with Sunni, except Monday.

Tuesday- He brought me to Marina Bay Golf Course as I mentioned before.

Wednesday- We went to Great World City and I treat him to ramen. He idiot lah! We took bloody 30 mins to think what we want to eat cos... All because he damn fussy... Sigh.. DONT SAY ALREADY LAH!!! Dulan lah! Then after that, we went starbucks to lepak! WOAH!! Shiok!! "Biscuit cake"!! Our favourite!!

Thursday- He came and find me at 3pm plus to my office then we go for teabreak... At Great World City again!! Starbuck-ing again!! I think our favourite place lah. LOVE IT!!!

Friday- We went to eat ayam penyet!!!!!!! Best penyet on earth!! Then we went Takashimaya to grab birthday cards for my company then we go starbucks again!! We will be bringing Irene to try the penyet on this coming monday! WHEE!!

Saturday- Wheeeeee!!!!! Met up with Irene and Sunni to watch 'THIS IS IT'!! The movie is not bad. I think Im falling in love with MJ's song again!! Lol!! Back to Irene, I love hanging out with her. I like her very much lah. Aye! I dont know how to explain. She just got the patient to explain to me slowly whenever I ask her questions. I just love this kinda person.

Sunday (tomorrow)- They want to come and find me after my work to go lepak!! Oh my god!! I feel like somehow I'm becoming their daughter like that lah!! But it is really nice to hang out with them. I'm so happy that I've make 2 new friends that are worth to spend time with.

2009-10-27T19:32:00.004+08:00

Wheeee!! Today's lunch, I went out with Sunni. Sadly, Irene went oversea for some business trip this morning. =( I heard from Sunni that Irene travel so much that every 6 month or less, she have to change her passport. WOAH!! I wish I can travel as much as her too!!! Yes, back to Sunni, he drove Irene's car to picked me up from my office and we went to Marina Bay Golf Course's cafe to makan! Lol. He damn idiot lah. He told me to suggest where to go... Then I said Waterloo Street's chicken rice damn good then he said, "Hey you!! Joker lah! Think of chicken rice!" Wah lau! I feel like kanna suan lah! (Side track: His driving damn scary lah! Cos his turning is damn POWERFUL!!! I so scared loh when I was in his car then I complained and he slow down. He so ting hua loh.)

Well.... The golf course there damn nice!!!! The scenery of the golf course is superb! He said he always bring Irene and Irene's maid here to lepak. -.-" Okay! I can imagine their lifestyles. They are ultimate busy on weekdays but when come to weekends... THEY JUST L-E-P-A-K! No work, no nothing! SHIOK SIA!!! He treated me to makan again! I feel so pai seh but blessed at the same time cos Im really broke! While we were eating, he tell me alot funny experience in his life. WAH! I laughed till I almost fainted! Sometimes I really can't tahan him lah cos of his jokes (just like another Stella Ong) but well... Im really happy to know him and Irene. Is so not easy to find good friends nowadays, although our ages are quite a huge gap but is really cool to know them. It just so fun!

Then now Sunni and I wanna do something together. We want to work together for his business designing's side. Well... I'm not charging him now because I just purely want to build my portfolio first. So his business plan, he have this proposal that he want to propose to his directors about his plan etc.. Then if successful, he want to hire me to do design and marketing for him. Then he want to buy a office space for just me and him to talk cock, sing song, plau mahjong. Hahaha. No la. Do work, my design work. He just want me to stay focus and that why he want to get me a good office space to do my work. If his proposal is approved!! I will be damn happy!! Cos Im gonna change job!! Hahaha. Not saying my current job sucks lah. Is just too little for me to be able to save up for my studies. YEAH!! MY STUDIES!!! I cant wait!!!! =)

Okay. Yup. I want to go out with Irene & Sunni again!! It's just so enjoyable!! LOVE IT!!

2009-10-25T23:29:00.004+08:00

ALAMAK!! I have tons of things to post but I really really forget... Or rather I have no idea on where to start. Well... What I really know is that I'm feeling.... Tons of mixed feelings.

1) Angry

2) Upset

3) Disappointed

4) Full of determination

5) Happy

6) Lucky

Aiya!! There are plenty of emotions running inside me. WAH!! I think the bloody weather is really giving my nose a bloody difficult time!! My nostril inside have been bleeding and dried inside and then I have to clear it every dont know how many minutes la. Annoying. @#%^&*((*&^

Today is a good day cos.. I went out with Irene & Sunni!! They are one of the coolest people that I ever met and befriend with. I'm extremely happy to meet them cos they really give me a lot of opportunity to work with them. Today, we went holland village!! (They laughed out loud at me loh... Cos is my first time there. -.- ) Well.... They paid every single thing for me. My drinks, my food etc.. Like a cool!! Cos I never have much friends do that for me. =) *Yawn* I'm too lazy to post everything about today. I just really enjoyed myself today with them!!

Anyway Alistair, I want to discuss something with you. If you happen to read this, give me a call. Sorry to trouble you. Thanks! =)

And thank you, jie-jie for doing so much for me recently. You really helped me a lot in my finance.

2009-10-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

Last service at Kallang was sweet...

I'm glad that I was there for the last one.

Next week, it's going be near at marymount mrt.

2009-10-04T00:11:00.003+08:00

These quizzes are aaaaadddiicccttiivvvveee...

1) What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Yayaya. I will tell those idiotic friends to go HONG GAN lah!! Nabei!! Dont waste everybody's time here!!

2)Your Marriage (Quiz says don't take it seriously.)

How will you choose your Mr Right?

You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church. (Well... 50:50 I guess..)

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you. (Cool. But not too old... Please...)

When will you get married?

As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing. (PUI!! I don't wish to marry young! The dumbest thing that I can do now. Career FIRST!!)

What sort of wife will you be?

You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man. (If I'm bloody unfaithful then I will not fall in love in the first place cos... It gonna cost too much pain for everyone!!)

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends. (Maybe I do respect some romance..)

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving kids up. They are lively and smart. (COOOLLL!!!)

How loyal are you?

You are a cool chick! You pretend not to care about the many men you attract, but they just keep coming back for more. When you are married, you won't be a loyal kind. (As I mentioned before.... This is dumb!!)

3) Your Hidden Talent- The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

(Ya la!! Thanks to ALL THOSE PEOPLE!!!)

4) How well do you react?

You recover quickly from disappointment. But when you feel that things are going wrong, you will react immediately. (Yup. Think so too..)

5) Pick One

1. Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends. (Yup!)

2. Your travel plan: In the future, you will often take overseas trips especially to modernized countries. You will get to explore Europe and North Asia like you always wanted. (YESSS!!!)

3. Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries. (YESSS!! This quiz know me soooooo well..)

4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around. (-.-)

2009-10-03T02:21:00.003+08:00

Hahaha.. I was actually angry about 6-7 hours ago. So I had an appointment with Stella Ong.... Im just so happy to see her and her alone, chatting all day long. Well.. It was just about 5 hours of her sweet time. And I only can say.. I had a good time spending time with her. This is what I called friend and a friend who is worth the time for. =) Well... I just got home not long ago and went to her blog and come along a personality test that she took and I tried it out too.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

About me!!!

(AL, I think you should try too. Cos you're my biz partner, so I would like to know you better too. Hee.)

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (Yeah. This is so true! I hope so.. To others.)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (Yup. I have to agree to this, though I love the single kinda lifestyle.)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (I guess so.. Who wouldn't?)

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Totally have to agree this. Don't waste my precious time!! Time = Money)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (OF COURSE!!)

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. (THIS TEST ROCKS!!)

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (YYYYEEEESSSS!!!)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. (Yup. This world is sucks!! Hell ya to everyone!! *oops*)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (YESSSS!!! Why did the quiz uncovered me? See lah.. Now everyone know my little secret now!!!!)

2009-10-02T09:44:00.002+08:00

Well... I guess it has been a while really blogging somehow. Finally project calendar is done! Aye.. Somehow something went very wrong. I guess it wasn't our fault. It was some.... Aye. No words can describe it right now. Yeah. But is over right now. So let not talk about here. Way too much to blog on that. LOL!

(I think I'm going to vent my 'dulan-ness' here!!)

I've been extremely busy with project calendar and my full time job. Full of designing work to do these two weeks.. Hopefully everything can be done by this week. I'm really tired and I'm glad that I slept 10 hours today!! Woohoo!! Charged!! Well.. I really love designing but when there is a miscommunication, I really wanna slap the person sia. Waste my time and effort. If you want a 30 mins job of completion then you tell me lah!!!!! Don't tell me you want this and that design then I TA-DA... For you and you said this is not what I want. Ok. Then fine... What do you want? Do you know I spent 6 hrs 40 mins for you for 5 posters. 1 poster = 1 hour 20 mins. Really waste time loh. When you just want me to grab a wallpaper on the web and then remove the words and fill up with our wordings there. That will only take me 20-30 mins (for 1 posters) to do that. If I grabbed 5 wallpapers online and I edit with that, that will only need about 2hrs to complete loh. I've spend sweet 6 hrs ++ for you when in the end, you just want a 2 hrs of work. AYE!!! WASTE MY BRAIN JUICE!! Forget it!! Damn dulan!

Yes. The passed two weeks..... I'm just in my designing after designing... Meeting after meeting mode!! AIYOOOO!!!! CAN DIIIIEEEEE!!! No la. Not really. Luckily I still make some time for myself and my friends to spend time with. I want to go fishing again!!! Whee!! Why THERESA LEONG NEVER RETURN MY CALL?! NABEI!!! DULAN LAH!!

I can't wait to go cambodia to do some voluntary work. I think I will cry there once I get there loh. Ehhh.. Why? Cos I really can't take it when I have to witness those kids who are suffering in their lives. I don't understand why this world can't be a better place for them too. Well.. I guess probably we are too fortunate. What we want, we will just get it so easily. I hate those kids when they get their car license then they expect their dadssss to buy a car for them. Woah!! Like as if buying a cellphone for them like that loh. Like a easy only!! We are too spoilt!!!!!!!!! I want live a life of doing everything from scratch!!!!!!!! Suffer now and enjoy later! I can make it big in my life!!! I believe that I can do it!!

2009-09-30T14:30:00.002+08:00

YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Im going to Cambodia in NOVEMBER with my company!!!!!!!!!!

For voluntary work!!!

I LOVE IT!!!

2009-09-26T02:00:00.000+08:00

You're born in my creation.

I've created you in my mind.

Making you almost perfect in every way.

You should be around 16 years old right now.

Practically you grew up with me.

I'm sorry that I didn't take notice of time and date that you're born.

What I only remember is... You spend most of your time with me.

I guess you're the only best friend I ever have.

No one seem to understand but you will.

I know when no one is here for me, you will never fail to be with me (when I start to mold the image of you in my head).

Hallucination is not the word to use.

Creativity will be the perfect word to use.

I wish... I could write a short story.... Just all about you.

I love you.